has nothing to do with meaning it.
***
On an unrelated note, which turns out to be longer than the main post itself, there are 60 new messages in my email inbox today from various strangers around the world. I'm gonna make a longer, more detailed post about this soon, but I just hafta say it - I miss anonymous community writing.
because the last time someone offered me his hand, I didn't take it, but this morning when you reached out with an open palm, I did.
1. Walang pasok pag Monday so I can go back to QC on Tuesday morning. My head has still not absorbed the fact that I have to sleep early during Sundays now.
2. OK lang ma-late sa class. Ngayong may log-in na, 8.30 is 8.30 and 8.31 is late so I really have to make an effort to be on time, unlike dati na pakapalan lang ng mukha.
3. German (and more) cuts. No more cutting classes pag tinatamad - in fact, no more cutting classes at all. E kase naman, saan ako pupunta if I cut my classes? Sa CR?
4. Regular casual clothes. The corporate shiz looks good, but nothing beats that laid-back feeling of wearing a shirt, shorts and a pair of flip flops. Plus, mas madaling maglakad pag di naka heels ano.
5. DOTA. (Till 2am, special mention of Archer singing "...Puck the magic dragon...")
I like money and earning it, but I swear, I won't hesitate to give up one month's salary for another month as a college student in UP Diliman, with Econ 141 and all the misery that comes with it. But oh, well, life goes on.
By some sick twist of fate, I'm keeping my current job and I did not have to kiss anyone's ass or whatever other part of the human anatomy to keep myself from getting laid off. ^_^ Whew!
Today I got my first and last salary from BPI for the fifteen glorious days I spent trying to be what I apparently am not meant to be.
The figure looks HUGE because they threw in a couple of bonuses and allowances, but since those bonuses and allowances are for the months of June to December, I have to return 5/6 of them. By my calculations, which my Accounting Exam has proven yet again to be inaccurate 90% of the time, I’m gonna be left with only around 16K net. Still, not bad for three weeks.
This experience has made me realize one thing. It feels good to have your own money. You don’t even have to be able to spend it, just seeing the figures and knowing that you earned it and it’s all yours makes you feel good. I went back to the ATM like eight times today just to see my balance, that’s how great it feels.
I like having money. And I promise that when I have my next job, I’ll do my best to always have a lot of it. All the time. ^_^
***
It takes a lot to make me look away
And that’s what you do when you look back at me.
It takes a lot to make me fumble
And that’s what you do when you chat me up about NBA.
It takes a lot to make me mumble
And that’s what you do when you ask me about MMA.
It takes a lot to make me nervous
And that’s what you do when you sit beside me.
It takes a lot to make me keep quiet
And that’s what you do when you walk next to me.
You can’t make me freeze.
But that’s what you did when you put your arm around my shoulders.
***
So far, I’ve taken losing my first and probably most promising job ever, in stride. I laugh about it, joke about it, even look like I know things are going to be fine, but the truth is I am so disgusted with myself that a lot of times I feel like throwing up. Sometimes I even do.
And you know what I do to make myself feel better when my life sucks so bad? I take every inch of consolation that I can from this.
GSP is not impressed
I didn’t have time to scribble down a note before I gave you your gift bilang kayo nina Lawi and Archer ang sumalubong sakin kalabas ko sa Blue Magic. :P So I decided to blog this nalang. ^_^
Happy Birthday. Thank you for being a good friend to me even when I have not always been a good one to you. I have many quirks that make me difficult to deal with, not to mention the fact that I have this habit of pushing people away, but you are one of those friends who never left even when I tried to shove them out. Even after all the not-so-good things I said and did to you, you were still the one who always invited me to dinners and dota games and EBS’s and everything else. I will always be here for you the same way you have always been there for me.
I gave you a pillow for symbolic reasons that no longer need discussing. O yan ha, quits na tayo. But all kidding aside, I know that despite everything that happened, we’re in a better place right now, and things can only get better from here.
P.S. The pillow’s name is Chokey. I named him after Lebron. ^_^
I did not expect it to be over so soon, but my stint as a management trainee at BPI has come to an end. Thank you to the wonderful people who have made the last month so special. This job may not be for me but I will always have you guys in mind and at heart. :(
